Why do we get jealous? Or better yet, 'when' do we get jealous? No, I don't mean envious, because when we envy we sort of pine without the deep gushing ache. The pining is a soft piercing ache. Jealousy on the other hand, is a gushing turbid all consuming emotion that sears and envelops u in an all encompassing form. Through that moment, you aren't thinking sanely, nor are you your normal self.
What is it that makes us jealous?
The way I see it, it's when the other person get's that which I had wanted... or seen as mine before someone else came and took it. It could be by chance, it could be planned. Either way, that hurts. It sears, it makes your normally calm insides roar, scream and burst into flames uncontrollable. In that moment you feel cheated and bereft. Like what was yours was taken away from you without a warning, by means unfair and incomprehensible. Logic makes no sense. Your world turns upside down and keeps rolling, tossing and swerving in sharp twists. Things become a blur and every part of you that can feel, aches in your pain, in the severest forms possible and then some.
Then u breathe out, take a calm breath, breathe in, and things start clearing up again. Thats when u take control of your emotions, straighten yourself back up again and decide whether to take things in your stride, or hit back.
I always choose to take things in my stride, wish them well, and start working on myself to move on.
Envy is a whole another story in my book of senses...