Wednesday, 25 November 2009

Hope...

When I come across certain people in life, see where they are today and all that they have achieved for themselves, I am sometimes left with a longing -and sadness- that is replete with -what if's- to myself about my life, and -mashAllah's- for those that instigate such a longing with in me...

The people who do so, are often much younger than I am. Seeing them achieve goals of life that I had once dreamt of for myself, at ages younger than me while I still stand today in my right now hoping on them, truly makes me happy for them. I lie not about this -even to myself- and hence the deepest, most honest mashAllah escapes my heart and lips incessently. But having said that, I look at myself and feel a sadness (induced by 'shaytan' I very well know and believe), wondering why was I not so lucky to be able to meet my marks when I tried and wanted.

Those/These aspirations exist in the bossoms of all of us, varying in degrees, intents, shapes and sizes. Simply said, we all have different dreams and things that we all as humans are seeking/aspiring for on a daily basis. It is finding grace in what we already have, being grateful for whatever it may be, that I feel is essential. Once we accomplish that, we can move on to seeking something better or simply more in hopes that with the right intent and faith, one day we will surely acquire it/find it...

With that thought I note the words in my head that speak to me:


Curb your desires dear heart
For your time will come too...

Have some faith dear heart
As real good comes after you've perspired for a few...

Be a little patient dear heart
The bounty of patience will transcend your imaginations
When it will unfold for you all that is yours in absolute fairness due...

iA... Ameen!!!

12 comments:

Faraz Haider said...

Eternity is not the time before us. It is not the time after us. It is the life we live at present. We are living in eternity. [There is just one day of judgement.]

We are living it this eternity. And whatever highs and lows we may have, catastrophic as they may be, we must welcome them, for we have been given a gift to live this - an eternity, our eternity!

Anonymous said...

Dear darling Haya,

Well said, very well said.
I hope your heart listens to your head.
May you acquire all that you wish for and more.

Hayaah said...

Faraz: Hmm... you kind of sort of lost me with the eternity logic. Because I find solace in knowing that the now is transient and it is the Eternity that I aspire to work for. That is if my now has things in it that I think are unworthy of an eternity deserving then I will be at a loss therein, in eternity ie.

That make any sense? The 2nd paragraph of yours I kind of get, because I do believe that we have to welcome all the highs and lows that we get because they are what will shape us into the person we are meant to be, and in how we face them/react to them lies our destiny. It is the choice we make that decides the people we shape ourselves into being. But 'eternity' per se I beg to differ, in my world of logic is yet to come once my spirit leaves this earthy vesicle and transcends into a better form thus, thereafter in an eternity promised.

Could it be a spiritual difference, our stand points of 'eternity' or are we in a metaphorical world at two different peaks using the wrong words to state the same point, maybe? :D

Thanx so much for reading, regardless. Appreciate the feedback/interaction that follows. It helps one think beyond and some more!

Anonymous: iA, Ameen! :) Though the 'Dear darling' bit kind of threw me off for a bit, since its coming from an 'anonymity' 0= ) Care to unravel the mask, maybe please? :) Thanx for reading and sharing your thoughts, regardless!

ommarah said...

True .,so true.sometimes I feel I have achieved so much more than other people -and other times so much less. Certain things in my life I feel-I am still waiting for -the waiting is so incredibly hard -as like you said -ppl younger than us seem to be getting on with it -and getting those things first -yes being happy for them is a given -but cannot take away from the fact that --why is the wait prolonged for me? Should I be doing something different or remember that my time will come too..questioning is trying to make the irrational rational?!xx

Faraz Haider said...

In this view of eternity I tried to reflect the enormity of this life we have been gifted by HIM.

Inner peace is foremost for if this is not achieved we keep stumbling, making the wrong choices, because in the state of disturbance our compass - the heart - is [thrown] off balance.

Once trained in using the heart; we must move on to step 2.

Faraz Haider said...

"That is if my now has things in it that I think are unworthy of an eternity deserving then I will be at a loss therein, in eternity ie."

This is true. Everything else is always secondary.

Faraz Haider said...

I sound a bit hard [the tone], I'm sorry...I'm feeling a bit distrubted myself right now :(

Hayaah said...

Faraz: Id like to think that - the brain - is my compass ;)

The heart is more prone to ''throwing me off balance'' 0= )

Inner peace indeed is a blessing enormous, as is THIS gift of life. I still pine for the eternity hereafter, because I want sustenance. I dont want to enjoy something that will not be here to stay. At the same time I go ahead and contradict myself by adding that if it has to be so, then I might as well choose the BEST means to achieve 'this' happiness, inorder to ensure that ''eternity'' hereafter comes with good tidings too, iA...

Ommara: Long time my friend. Questioning indeed is like making the irrational rational. You got that right, alright :D

Hope u've been well, iA...
xxx

Hayaah said...

Sorry... that 'disturbed' bit came in after I had already posted. Im sorry... I hope you feel better soon. re: tone, no worries because I totally did not get the 'bit hard' part, for I was simply enjoying the criticism :)

Faraz Haider said...

Hayaah, I just love all this interaction, it's simply amazing & wonderful.

I think you've hit it [this part about how to figure eternity out]; it does lay in the hereafter, but to enjoy the fruits there we have to focus ourselves to the present, also thus to focusing immensly on life itself [in the world]

I've come up with this little theory of my own, about the mind-heart dynamics, here is what it is. Tell me what you think! :)

The mind reasons, uses logic, holds-grasps ideas [like our hands do], organizes information [like a computer filing system does] and thus is a neat, kick-ass information processor [a kind yet to be invented by Microsoft!]

our heart though uses a slightly different facult to sense things or [make sense of external stimuli]. It does so by 'feeling' in a totally non-thinking way. [Thus we know in our heart of hearts that it is true that peace is superior to war, and reason is never needed to know this in say a very flash of a moment-we just know, vala!]

so the heart processes and the mind processes too...

Faraz Haider said...

and so we should use both these faculties, being conscious of both of them and using them indepentaly as in when we use our left hand and our right hand.

Faraz Haider said...

To take this furthur:
The processing our heart does is churned out as intuition [intuition is the output of it] and clearly it is intuition that leads reasoning itself. But how does it do that you might ask.

The words that I write now first came to my mind through an intuitive faculty. These words I later may re-organize for a better effect, but each act or step is preceded foremost by some form of intuition.

Thus I think when we are in harmony: our heart will sense -> churn out as intuition -> send to the mind -> the mind organizes and sends back perhaps to the heart.