Monday, 9 March 2009

Buried pain momentarily surfaced

Heal the soul of this pain that reverberates deeply with in, Oh Lord I beg Thee!

It finds escape from the bounds I had entrapped it in and enfolds my being into spasms uncontrollable...

I want not to visit that place again where two hearts met in love, only to be ripped apart all too soon to make any sense...

Her tears, her sobs pound holes into my heart each time I remember them, and further yet when I hear his voice shake in reminisce and watch his eyes reflect an ache profound - I break into pieces, scatter into smithereens abound...

I watch from a distance as she ruffles her feathers, flustering, begging to be released, no more further perturbed...

I watch from a distance as he refuses to let go in hopes of a last chance perhaps, to try something more, anything, desperately to get her back...

I watch it all from a distance, trying to keep the door to my heart closed, as I can not bear to take any sides in this picture as matters ensue...

Who is right or wrong and how much so, Oh my Lord, only You know and I beg Thee to quick fix it all and bury the wrenched pain of all hearts that are distraught and forlorn!

Ameen.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

hey! I've read your blog and I admire your strength. I grew up in Riyadh too and so many people lose themselves here.Its easy to do with the strangely shallow life people lead in this city. But you have found yourself.Keep at it.I'm sure something amazing is waiting for you right around the corner.Dont be down, you are the modern Islamic woman, the future I wish every young girl could embrace. Keep writing.
My Allah give you all that you wish for and more.

Hayaah said...

Thanx so much for the motivating words and encouragement :) JazakAllah khayr!

I so know what you mean about the shallow life most people here lead. InshAllah may more of us, each day, take the steps ourselves to step away from that which we disagree with and be the change that we hope to see. Religion keeps one sane and rooted, Alhumdulillah.

Writing is therepeutic for me so iA I shall keep at it, and this is where you shall always find it ;)

Thank you so much for visiting my blog! :)

Linda S. Socha said...

So hauntingly beautiful. Your passion and caring is intense. I hear a need for some detachment..if with still maintaining involvement. You are a woman who will not go involved in the world where you find yourself.. That is my prediction today Hayaah.

Forgive me if I intrude, it is not my intent on any level but I would share with you. I may or may not be correct in either the impressions or the sharing....but permission to share is requested
Linda

Hayaah said...

You're most welcome to share and predict, by all means :)

Thanx for the 'hauntingly beautiful'... sometimes I feel that when fresh pain is what stems the words out of you, they take on a life of their own affecting the readers in a myriad of ways that matter to them individually? I dunno...

Deep contemplation and introspection is where I find myself often, lately...

*sigh*

semi charmed said...

Woah.....that is deep! is this based on someone?! its very sad . ameen i hope everything works out

Hayaah said...

they're always based on someone...
JazakAllah khayr... i hope it does for the better good of all too, iA...

Cynthia said...

Hello Hayaah, you've written and examined the
feelings of each person in this poem so well,
it is very easy for me to relate to each person
and the conflicting emotions and pain each
is going through.

Hayaah said...

Hye cynthia,

Im actually quite overwhelmed by how many people are identifying with this post, as I literally wrote it amidst tears and was a venting of pain at the time for me. Usually I write post pain when ure kind of numb and in a limbo. ha ha... Did I jst lay myself open as a loony? :)

Anyhoo, to read that people relate kind of saddens me that the pain of this nature is all arnd and inescapable, since I'm not the only one who feels it.

Thanx for reading and commenting. Appreciate it :)

Ophelia said...

Aw. The way you describe the emotions, I don't think I can take on others emotions like that anymore, im a robot these days. But I felt it tugging at my heart as I read.

good stuff. ~!

Hayaah said...

Thanx Ophelia...

Sometimes when it really pulls at the heart, the words come out of their own accord -_-