I had disappointed myself into a state that I feared, I would never be able to forgive myself for, first and foremost.
Beg on for forgiveness from quarters Basic, would remain an endless plight for life that remained.
They had all made the same mistake.
They had nudged me into areas that went past my comfort zone and beliefs.
They had tempted me into things that I knew I would later regret doing,
Simply because they went against my morals and I hated myself thereafter.
That was the difference between them and me; The -me- that I always knew I was, wished to be and remain so.
The very -me- that I choose to go back to being, now.
It is a -you- I seek; you who will understand this me...